Emily, you stole the words out of me. Just yesterday I was out with friends and telling them that I am happy for now and that I was not going to actively pursue any dating apps…..yet when I hit the pillow at night I felt what you felt. I’m such an affectionate person and worthy of receiving love and affection as well. I have my dog next to me, but every once in a while I do wish too. Like you said, just allow us to feel, sit with those feelings, and send them their way until the next time. Hugs and you are not alone! Thanks for your confession, it helped me.