It’s taken me a long time to realize that I can go a different way. Reading up on the mother wound and mother hunger gave meaning to the madness I’ve been chasing after - the nurturance and guidance I never received. I just started a 21-day detox where I have no-contact with my mother and instead nurture myself.
Thank you for writing about it and making me feel like I am not alone. My mother has build her image on her ego and she is not going to step down from that pedestal. I can stop going back to her seeking the nurturance and affection that was never present.