My heart goes out to you my friend. I’m sorry that you had to leave one hell hole to find yourself in another. Nothing is more painful that feeling the sense of betrayal and unprotected from parents.

I think, even if there’s not going to be any change, you should tell your dad how you feel. How you were looking for shelter and a place to get back on your feet and instead saw an unhappy side of him. Tell him you forgive him, but wish he didn’t do what he did.

We live only once and for something is painful, let it out. Maybe you can start with a letter to him. Don’t give it to him. Just write it and then decide whether you want to burn it or give it to him - both acts as a way of letting go.

🤗 Hugs to you!!